a Turning Point
Yesterday was our Wedding Anniversary, Actually, the 14th was our Anniversary and this is the first night that I had money to do anything for it
A Lot of things are being changed, and reassessed, who knows what is going to happen, either she stays with me or not
Hating keeping things from her i made (purposely?) a beginners mistake of not securing things, such as my Y! List or my computer.. (The drawback of being fundamentally honest, when deception may be necessary you fail on purpose - interesting thought)
She pounced on our anniversary, and made me proud of her for the first time in a while...
And yesterday evening we spoke about things that we had been keeping bottled up for 4 years
She is getting the reason she cannot have sex worked on (painful, sex is very painful)
If she stays we will possibly have an open relationship (actually what I always wanted, i am a pig, but not a double-standard pig)
Or i will be locked in a standard marriage again but i truly hope not
I do not think that i want a marriage where she commits her self to faithfulness but lets me roam... if its open, its fully open
I tried to roam because I felt I had no other choice... and now that she knows, the choices are there again, and we will see what happens...
Together, or Separately, But openly and honestly Finally